Mother’s Day without one of my babies

Mother’s Day🌼

These type of days though are difficult now.

All morning I was just hoping Albie would send me a gift somehow, a sign that would make my day easier and my heart less heavy.

But now I realize that was wrong.

I can bare the pain, I can handle the heart ache and accept I’ll be forever a bit broken.

But I just really really hope Albie isn’t missing me today. 

I remember when we tried to move him to his big boy cot in his room, he was so upset to be away from me where he could see me last thing before he closed his eyes and as soon as he opened them.

I hope he doesn’t feel like that today. 

Alone without his mum, I hope he doesn’t know loneliness. 

I hope he’s too busy being cuddled and loved.

Because I think regardless of where our children might be, all us mums want is to know our children are happy and feel loved. 

I don’t need any gifts. I don’t even need to feel ok. I just need all my boys to be ok. 

So my little Albie…please don’t worry about sending me a sigh, you do so much for me. Just know I am always your super proud mum and I am blowing up a million kisses. I hope you feel them❤️