My first and last

Time is passing

Life’s moving…it’s fast, it’s busy, it’s constant.

I will now have to add another number when saying how long ago you died.
That sum makes no sense.
It was a life time ago, and a moment ago.
How very strange.

But I’ve got a little plan.
Later I will not be busy. I will not rush nor distract myself.
I’ll stop time.
To think only of you.

You’re always there of course, in my thoughts , as I do life.

But tonight, in the quiet, when all the buffets eaten, the fireworks have banged and the world has raised its glass to a new year…
I will get lost in the memories of you.

You will be my last thought of 2025.
And my first thought of 2026.
Before all the busy life stuff gets in the way.
That space, that first and last, it’s reserved just for you, my darling.

Because I need to make sure you come with me.

Laying your tiny footprints.

The first footer of my heart.