Ask your body

I never underestimate the enormity of taking a breath. 

Filling my lungs with either the fresh air of spring or the cosy candle scented air of winter. And all that comes in between.

It never ceases to amaze me that despite what’s happening in my mind my body keeps performing as it should, beat by beat of my broken heart. 

I heard at a yoga class once ‘if you don’t feel like you want to – or can’t – do something ask your body to help you out’ 

I have done this often.

Ive asked my feet to carry me to meet the friend I thought of cancelling thinking I had no fun to offer. We ending up laughing over toasties and putting the world to rights.

Ive asked my legs to help me run the 5k I never thought I could, I did so slowly but surely and felt such pride in getting that medal placed around my neck.

I’ve asked my eyes to open see ahead a day of adventures I can create at 6am as my children look to me to start a day of fun. Their smiles made me smile.

I ask my hands to dial the number for NHS 24 when I hadn’t slept for days and could feel everything spiraling around me. They listened, they cared and they helped me make a plan.

I asked my mouth to say the words ‘I need help’ and suddenly, even though my words were shakey they were out there and I was not alone in this anymore. 

So take the deep breath, allow your lungs to fill for you and ask your body to take you forward on the paths that may look treacherous at first but somehow end somewhere better.

It knows what to do.

Of course it does.

It’s you.